Shalom♡

My name is Candice, I am a mom of 4 beautiful, faith-filled, home-schooled young people. 16, 11, 9 & 3♡ Thank you so much for taking the time to come here and hear our story♡

As many of you know, our family has had a pretty rough season over the last year. From our marriage ending & Husb leaving, to hospital stays & 3rd degree burns, to my van's engine dying & a head on collision in my exs truck; and then anaphylactic shock, an epi-pen & an auto-immune disorder? SoOoo much has happened that it doesnt even seem real?‍? i just have to laugh bc as much it's tearing me apart, the extent of ridiculousness is almost comical. Like i should be writing country music, except I'm not into fishing or beer lol.. I'm the type to always look for the silver lining, to laugh off tragedy as strengthening, but right now im struggling... Our fridge is empty more than it's full, buying myself some health need means cutting out something else.. I've gone from watching my babies lovingly console eachother over the 'loss' of their Daddy, to fighting over food. It's breaking me. While I trust that Yah is guiding our steps, the road ahead just feels overwhelming at times, and so uncertain.. and while I know that this season will not last forever, and i do trust that ultimately Abba only allows these trials to refine us, to train us up in endurance, and i do believe it will eventually bring forth blessing (and in some ways, it already has) still, the weight is alot right now.

We desperately need a vehicle, a little help to get me working again, and then I am certain that everything else will fall into place♡

I'm not trying to avoid working or my own responsibility to provide, i just want my family to be my first priority right now, not working for someone else. Our marriage was a mess, and our children are going thru a lot emotionally, especially with their Daddy hardly seeing or speaking to them, so i need to get them into some recreational activities, scouts, sports, music.. and now a bunch of Drs appts too. 

I did try applying for a loan too, but it didn't get approved, so now I'm at a loss and I don't really see a way forward without asking for help. I don't like having to do this, and i know it's alot to ask bc so many are struggling financially themselves, but the plan is that with a van and some tools, I can get working for myself and not need be a burden on the communty any further; but rather be in a position to help others again.

It has just seemed like everytime i step forward this year, something else pops up to knock me down. Quite literally one thing after the other.

Here's the whole story for whoever would like to join my Ted Talk Trauma Dump - grab yourself a comfy chair, maybe a tea or a kombucha if that's your fancy, and join me for the adventure:

Last March my Husband left us, scrambling to find a house we could afford, as my only employement over the last 6 years has been working for his Landscaping company, which i helped him build. We were blessed to find a place, good price, accepted me even without employment, only it was about 30 minutes outside town, a bit of a way from family and activities. On one of our last trips moving stuff out there, our van died. My ex was kind enough to let us use his extra work truck, but just last month now, it was totalled, when the children and I were hit in a head on collision. (I was not at fault lol)

Back in June I burned myself, got 2nd & 3rd degree burns covering most of my forearm, some of my hand, chest, foot, and belly.. put some aloe on it and ended up in anaphylactic shock, had to be epi-penned, which i think somehow brought on an auto-immune flare up (mass cell activation syndrome) which had me breaking out in hives, non stop, over my whole body, for 6 straight months, so it's all landed us in a really terrible financial situation..

I didn't get the skin graft the Hospital wanted, bc I believe in The God Who Heals - Yahuah Rapha ?? The God of Abraham, Isaac & Jacob ?? So I chose to heal at home, but it was a real investment to do so - we used primarily Manuka Honey and Collodial Silver, and Tumeric, Vitamin C, Oregano oil, Vitamin E oil, aloe & salmon skin, along with a strict diet, no carbs, basically just salmon, salad, steak, beets and berries. There were a ton of supplements, many im still taking, and eventually a bunch oils and salves. I had no other option really than to short my rent, I've managed to pay some back, but i'm still $1450 behind. Just when things started to get better, i was off bed rest, able to go outside more and have my arm uncovered a bit, was when the autoimmue thing started. And honestly it was so uncomfortable, it rivaled the burn. I couldn't sleep, was in constant discomfort, crying and itching. I'm not a Drs & pharmaceuticals type, but I was there begging for relief. I was put on 20 days of prednisone, but it just kept coming back, benadryl and Allegra every few hrs, but it only sort of slowed it down. Eventually I learned about Boswelia extract, once I started taking it, the rashes actually started clearing up. I'm about 2 weeks now with no flare ups ??

Then I get out to pump gas 1 day, slip on ice, and bruised my tailbone, so I was back in bed for 3 weeks. In agony all thru my back and legs, and totally destroyed my sleep quality. I had to start seeing a chiropractor, which I couldn't afford really (he wanted me doing 2xs/week but I could only manage 1, and even that was essentially a choice between food or care) so I guess the crash offered some blessing, that now I can see chiro and massage and its covered lol

The money I'm asking for would be primarily for a vehicle, getting some tools, and a little to help catch up and stay a float for the time being, just so that I can get to a place where I'm taking care of us myself, not begging or bothering anyone else.

Now that Spring is around the corner, I just want to get back to doing exactly what i was doing with my ex, but for myself, have my own little Landscaping operation, making my own hours, around the needs of my children. ((I also very much enjoy refinishing furniture and selling it, and I've already got a few pieces in my shed waiting for attention. I've got all sorts of other little side plans too, but doing anything requires a vehicle and some start up $))

Truly, thank you if you were able to get this far.

We would be so thankful for any help you feel led to give

Even if that is simply to partner with us in prayer♡

May Yahuah, The God of The Bible, The God of Abraham, Isaac and Jacob; and His Son, Our Redeemer, Yahusha, be with you, and bless you, and your families.

He knows our needs

May His Will be done??

He knows our needs and He always fills them♡

HalaluYah?????